“Hitch a ride on the back of a Butterfly”, lyrics by Train

As I was driving home from work today the song “Get to me”, lyrics by Train formed and played through my mind like a broken record. This song has and always will be my “go to”, song when I feel life has a hard way of “talking”, to me. I don’t know how to complete a thought when it comes to this stage of my life. I can’t form a proper word to express how I feel about any of this. Again, that is when I turn to simple things that I take for granted. Such as music (it doesn’t matter what form it comes in), novels, inspired story’s through another’s life. Or simply from behind the eyes of those I look at each day. I know the life I live is a good one. I have been blessed with many things, including my husband and my family. It’s when I look around at what I got, and without a child, I don’t feel like it’s a lot…with this life is every…with a child is EVERYTHING.

I have seen love and innocence through the eyes of my nieces and nephews. When I think of me holding my child, it’s weird, but I cant see a face…I only vision a baby..a toddler…crying, laughing, learning to crawl and walk with me..with us, Kevin and I.

I’ve experienced all these reassured moments so many times with my nieces, nephews and close friends with children. I have been there to see these little people grow and age into their life they are living now. I am fortunate to be a part of their lives and share so many new and happy moments with each one of them. It’s when I step from behind the camera, DVD recorder or face book to realize that I yearn to see all this happen to my own child that I long for. I don’t care how my child gets to me….just get to me.